I talked about my csa and ca and I regret it with all my heart and soul. I am sitting here right now wishing I was dead. It is the biggest regret of my life. I would rather go through all of it all over again as terrible as it was rather than to ever talk about it.
I've been suicidal all morning long. nightmares every time I close my eyes.
my former therapist encouraged and allowed me to go through all of that all over again only to allow me to come to the realization that men don't matter when it comes to this stuff only women do.
I wish I could go back in time and just shut my mouth.
there was no comfort a consolation waiting for me.
Now I wish I was dead.
I will never be healed.
I hope when I do die God puts me in hell with the rest of his mistakes.
I would give anything to take back what I told my therapist.
once I got to a point where I reveal all what happened to me she terminated.
I go to bed at night thing I say is please let this be the night I die.
when I wake up I apologize for existing.
of course now that I realize it, pretty people are really put out by comforting ugly people.
I'm just too ugly for comfort.