Therapy took the only power I ever had and I didn't even know it until it was gone.
The power of silence.
That power was taken by trust.
I will never trust again.
Without trust a therapist has no power whatsoever.
I've never heard someone talk about negative cycles before more than a therapist.
meaning the negative cycle of comfort. The cycle of being despised is much easier for a therapist because the sadist should never comfort the masochist.
Yet now I feel like the masochist and the sadist rolled into one.
Having engaged in therapy to suffer for an amused therapist, I now despise myself more than even she despises me.

Think it through...

A therapist that has your trust can walk you into a life of shame where the only thing more tolerable is fire.