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Originally Posted by nothingtolivefor
Therapy took the only power I ever had and I didn't even know it until it was gone.
The power of silence.
That power was taken by trust.
I will never trust again.
Without trust a therapist has no power whatsoever.
I've never heard someone talk about negative cycles before more than a therapist.
meaning the negative cycle of comfort. The cycle of being despised is much easier for a therapist because the sadist should never comfort the masochist.
Yet now I feel like the masochist and the sadist rolled into one.
Having engaged in therapy to suffer for an amused therapist, I now despise myself more than even she despises me.
Think it through...
A therapist that has your trust can walk you into a life of shame where the only thing more tolerable is fire.
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I'm so sorry NTLF, that your T did not give you the empathy, the compassion, the affirmations you desperately needed to help you. If only you had a different T, someone who could respond appropriately, then maybe you would feel differently? Maybe instead of being shamed 10 x more, maybe you could have been helped to see that none of what you were put through as a child was your fault. You did nothing wrong! You did not deserve how you were treated. You have suffered so much and I feel for you that your T betrayed that trust (mine did too). I'm so sorry as I know how bad that feels.