Hey Josie,

OK, first things first, have a hug (((((Josie)))))

Second, you are NOT a jerk, an idiot or anything like that and I can prove it too. If you were, then you wouldn't be here telling us here, would you? Jerks are jerks precisely because they don't know they are!

You are amazing, don't forget that
Lots of fluey love and hugs xx