Agreed and the feeling is mutal, you are a bundle of contradiction and it does push my buttons. I take no pleasure in any of our interactions and I hardly call it attacking. I prefer to see it as pointing out the Giant White Elephant in the room. You are unwilling to take any advice anyone has given you , so helping you appears to be impossible. I take exception to being referred to as a psych patient, though I do find it mildly amusing. It's amazing to me that you can read and play music , present yourself articulately and seem to be rather inteligent but can't imagine how to balance a checkbook. I do believe that some of my issues are spilling onto you and I apologize for that. However, I am not the enemy. You do a good job of twarting your own growth without me, I'm just pointing it out instead of holding your hand with a "there, there". Someday you may actually see that I was really trying to help you take ownership of you by challenging your helpless attitude or maybe you wont.