bluegirl, I too have struggled with childhood neglect/abuse, poor self image/esteem and problems with my weight. I still struggle with them and other issues. Right now, I am overweight and isolating myself because I am sick. But, even though I am currently in an overall bad state for some reason I am feeling slightly better today. I know it won't last but I'm trying to appreciate at least this one day. Life sucks when you hate yourself. I have to constantly work on it. Hang in there.....D.