(((Maranara)))

Last night's post sufficed everything very clearly. I'm glad that you were in a calm state of mind, and able to take a step back from the emotions. That's a terrific improvement!

I am sorry that this afternoon isn't going very well for you. Things will get better again... I know it! Have you had any luck finding a decent T to work with? Seeing one could really help you work through some of these experiences & hopefully be an appropriate safety net for you to rely upon.