It hasn't been a good day so far. Feeling very depressed. I guess it's because of my health anxiety. It's a hot humid day today and that has not happened in a while where I am. I've been feeling very tired and not wanting to do anything. That's unusual for me. I also feel very lonely.

My only friend I have got mad at me today. I went to church (where he goes also) and following the service there was going to be a lunch for the college students. The church is located near the campus of a college. It seemed crowded today and very overwhelming. I was not looking forward to the lunch and I really preferred not to be there today.

But my friend had some clothing items that he was going to give me. After the service I waited for him to come out as I was outside. It seemed like it was a long time when I didn't see him. So I just left. I also was not feeling that good at the time.

I got an email from him saying that he was disappointed in me that I didn't hang around long enough. Also he said that he was upset with me. I called to apologize. He was upset at first, but got over it. It's upsetting when the only good friend that I have can be upset with me. I feel like if I lose him as a friend, I wouldn't know what to do. It's very hard for me to make friends.