(((poptart)))
I am sorry that you're feeling down so low. These intense feelings really can be hell, can't they?
Just try hard to remind yourself that this feeling will go back down. It always does ~ and something else will take it's place. Hopefully, a more grounded feeling will be the one! *crossing my fingers*
p.s. I agree with misskeena. Don't let Chris use your loneliness and insecurities to his advantage...that only puts your self-esteem lower. (((gentle hugs))) sent to you.