A couple days ago some old family friends that I haven't seen in like 10 or more years came for a long lunch party. I was so worried before they came. My life is not that great right now and I don't feel like I'm at my best or living a great life worthy of interest, so I was I didn't even want to see them.
But when they started to arrive, I put my fear out of my mind and while I was very nervous at the beginning, beforfe long I realized I was sitting amongst these friends talking and realized that the hardest part was over. Plus, it was SO good to see them and catch up. I loved it and was proud of myself for going through with it. However, I was this close to just hiding out and not even making an appearance.

Z