I put nightmares in quotations because they aren't terrifying. They are short and just leave me heartbroken and sobbing every time I manage to doze off.

The dream goes like this; my sister goes "Grey, you need to wake up now. (my brothers name) is here." and I wake up in this panic and he's never there, obviously, but it's like all the air gets sucked out of my lungs and I have this childish hope that maybe he will be there one day when I wake up fast enough.

I cry every night now. I want him back so badly.