Leilee,

Did you write this for me, as it describes me to a T!!
In fact, the same thing happened to me, but I spent it on others!!
My husband keeps telling me I need to save but I don't know why I do it.
I am not on any kind of med for it as I haven't told anyone in the medical field of this problem. I just figured it was something I have to learn but can't seem to help myself. While I'm buying, I know that I shouldn't but it's like something takes over and says, go ahead, it's ok.
Then afterwards, I am so depressed!! I am on two different depression meds but when I do something like this, you wouldn't know it.
So, I'm sorry I can't help you. I do hope things get better for you, though,
Linda