I've had Dysthymia for as long as I can remember...I don't think I've ever had a major depressive episode, but I feel mild to moderately depressed the vast majority of the time.

Then again, I have nothing to compare it to...this is normal for me, so maybe it's more than mild to moderate.

But I don't seem to be able to get much done or concentrate on anything for long enough. I feel stuck inside (and therefore very lonely) because unless I'm going over to my neighbors, the anxiety is too strong for me to go out. Just going to Walgreens had me so anxious that I felt sick when I got home. I also always feel "out of it" and that I might appear like I'm drunk or disoriented when I'm out in public. It's difficult for me to even type this out.

I'm not sure what I want out of this...I just feel alone.

By the way, I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next month and I'm not interested in trying therapy again.