myself,

very good advice. I think my journal will give her some insight to be able to help me make that descision.

January,

The anxiety is the biggest issue right now and the mood swings, and just coping with the fact that I have a lifelong illness.

Thank you both for your replies.
Oh! And myself, i too do the courage to heal books, though pdoc says she wants to wait until meds stabilize me before jumping into them.