I am a believer and I believe in reincarnation. I understand your pain. You are a loving sister and your brother will always be with you in your memories. Maybe , he will be back as your grand son someday. I am not making superstitious talks to comfort you but writing what I believe. If I said something I have no right of , then I am sorry. I have no sister and I treat my cousin as my sister and I love her a lot. please take care of yourself.