Glad to hear you're doing okay Bark! Hope you're not forgetting your meds

Had a bad monday. Not really in the best place now. To be honest, on the way home I was in a crisis. I was so near to the hospital where my T and pdoc works at that time.. I felt like going there so as to keep myself safe. I didn't. I felt so determined for the negative things and unmotivated for the positive things..

Really frustrated with self because now I realise some small event that happens would set me off crying. I've been forcing myself to eat for the whole year now (even putting on weight) and now my appetite is just gone. And I don't want to bother for now. I really don't. What's the point of trying and trying when I just fail?

I'm making sui plans subconsciously and T appt is somewhere this week. Supposed to do my T assignment but I feel so unmotivated to do so. I don't feel like going even. I just want to give up