A common statement made by people who struggle with PTSD is, "I just don't feel like myself". So, you are truly not alone with how you feel.

It sounds like you are disassociating at times too, which also can be one of the symptoms.

Are you working with a therapist now?

It really takes time to work through PTSD, it all depends on the person and what their history is. There is a lot more help "now" then there used to be too.

Sorry you are struggling hun. Also PTSD is an anxiety disorder, that is also something you need to learn how to better manage.

(((Hugs)))
OE