All people disassociate it is pretty "normal" actually. However, with PTSD, everything is "magnified" and imbalanced. And yes, when anxiety flairs up, it can be easy to feed into because it is scary to experience an anxiety attack.

I am glad to hear you are working with a specialist. You need to be very "patient" with yourself and allow yourself whatever time you need to "slowly work through the PTSD and heal".

I struggled badly with it and it took time for me to develop a support system. I found myself working overtime trying to understand it and put it into words. In all honesty, it really frightened and confused me too. It is definitely tiring and challenging, but if you have people around you that can "validate" you and comfort and reassure you, the healing process is not as difficult.

It is very important to be "patient" with yourself and give yourself as much time as you need to "slowly" work through it and practice "self care" instead of feeding into it.

Quote RJstatic :
I didnt want to talk because what I had inside me was something I thought nobody knew about, something I couldnt express.

This is also a very common perception. You are really not alone with this either.
(((Caring supportive Hugs)))
OE