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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
I've had Dysthymia for as long as I can remember...I don't think I've ever had a major depressive episode, but I feel mild to moderately depressed the vast majority of the time.
Then again, I have nothing to compare it to...this is normal for me, so maybe it's more than mild to moderate.
But I don't seem to be able to get much done or concentrate on anything for long enough. I feel stuck inside (and therefore very lonely) because unless I'm going over to my neighbors, the anxiety is too strong for me to go out. Just going to Walgreens had me so anxious that I felt sick when I got home. I also always feel "out of it" and that I might appear like I'm drunk or disoriented when I'm out in public. It's difficult for me to even type this out.
I'm not sure what I want out of this...I just feel alone.
By the way, I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next month and I'm not interested in trying therapy again.
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Hi I.Am
How are you feeling today. We were in the chat room room last night, I know you are struggling with depression right now, as well as isolation.
I have lived with dysthymia, myself, for as long as I can remember. As a child, I was very anxious, sensitive, a worrier. By the time I was 12, I was so stressed with my life, and in my late teens, I started having panic attacks.
My sadness is always with me, -- always, but I am able to function, and live a full life -- for that I am very grateful.
I am now 65, so have been coping with this for many years. I am struggling right now with more sadness than usual, and am quite emotional -- tears come and go -- and I am not a person who easily cries -- if anything, I dislike it immensely -- but, right now, they seems to be a good release.
As I am getting older, I am seeing that maybe I need to let the emotion out -- tears will do that -- maybe I will learn to accept that.
Having constant, chronic depression is very difficult -- I tend to go into my shell more, at times
Like you, I do not think more of talk therapy -- honestly, my life, except for this, is very good. There is nothing in my childhood, or my marriage, or my raising a family, that needs to be discussed. As far as I see it, this condition is genetic, it is biological, it is clinical. In the family -- in mine, big time. So I come well by this "miserable curse"!!!
I could go on and on -- please know you have a source of understanding and support from me
