I am going through the same thing right now. I'm always starting to cry. Wishing I would just die from something. I'm 61 and have battled with depression most of my life. Did have a few manic spells in there but I can barely remember them. I'm so consumed with this pain and none of the things that you mentioned help me either. I've tried so many meds that have either made matters worse or just didn't work. I'm not sure how I keep going but I know it's a day at a time. I hope you do the same because every day we make through there is hope for the next one. At least, that's what I keep telling myself. Keep trying. Good luck
Gayle