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Originally Posted by ShrinkPatient
YES! I do this too. ...
For me, I've nearly concluded that I do it because I'm no comfortable in the situation (for whatever reason) and my "Open Book" defense kicks in. Basically, for me I behave like an open book, but not really. Not emotionally. That comes later. If I appear open with everyone then no one really looks twice. If a book is locked, it's mysterious. People are more interested. However, if everything is "out" & in the "open," then no one really reads the story.
I don't know if this is anywhere near to the truth really but since I've concluded this, I've been much more reserved. In a good way.
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I think you might have helped me solve a riddle I've been dealing with for a very long time. I do notice that I tend to say the most... well, lets just say I know what the term "word vomit" really means! But I do it mostly in situations where I don't feel comfortable or "accepted" by the people around me. I sometimes intentionally use my "crazy" to sift out those people who just can't handle or understand someone who's brain doesn't work like theirs, but in times where I can't do that, it amps me up and suddenly I'm giving them unrelated facts and figures, or telling "funny" jokes, or a story about how when I was 5 I ate a bug.
When I catch myself going on and on and on in a truly hypo manic state (and my mom has called me on it before) I've learned to pinch my wrist. It's almost an automatic response now. Helps ground me.
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