When boyfriends have told me, "you're just crazy but I love you..."
Aaarghh that does not help me. I know they're trying to be sweet or something but I don't like it.

The meds ur on aren't helping you, I would tell the doc that. And meds are not for everyone either. I just finally lost the 30 lbs gained from lithium I quit last November.

Do u have a therapist / T? I can't afford one right now but want to get back in with one, weekly would be nice.

Hope you feel better soon.