As Father's Day is approaching fast (Tomorrow I think) I too feel your pain. I sorely miss the relationship that "should" have been with my parents...mine were physically and mentally abusive to all of us kids, and my mom allowed my dad to get away with molesting my sister for many years. (MY mother is still with him)
I struggle around the holidays the most, but since we moved around the country so much, I never had a family friend or father figure to look up to either, so here I sit, all alone.
Not really a pitty party, though it does get me down sometimes--
I hope that you find someone who will be a true father figure to you, without taking advantage of a young woman in need.
As far as friends who actually understand, you've come to the right place.
Blessings,
Jon
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