(((transientsoul))),

I hate hearing a story such as yours...it makes me incredibly sad because I truly DON'T think we realize the poverty issues in this country. And there are so many ads on tv asking us to donate to other (third-world) countries...hello?? And our issues HERE?? Who is taking care of those??
I really hope your disability comes through soon...I am waiting myself, but until then (and even afterwards) I luckily have my father's monetary support. It comes with more guilt than most people could imagine, but nonetheless I consider myself very lucky...I need to be able to make ends meet more than I need a "good father" (in all other senses of the word).
Hugs to you and I really hope things get better...and soon.