I understand what you are saying. Dusty was my forever horse and I wanted us to die together so neither of us would be without the other. I had him for only twelve years before he died last year. He was my best friend in the world and I miss him so. My dogs and cats have all gone missing or died in the past couple years and I have no pets at all right now. I am going to adopt a cat or two from the shelter but my son says lets get the house cleaned better before we bring another animal here but I don't want to wait. I need a cat and somewhere a cat needs me.