For as long as I remember, I have never really fit in with the social "norm". I have always felt like an outcast and I am unable to converse with strangers or be in areas with large crowds without feeling hopeless and trapped. I have tried countless meds, all of which have not worked for me. I am at a breaking point in my life and the thoughts and dreams I am having have started to scare me. I have talked with my counselor, but it feels as though I am getting nowhere and that I come to the end of my available options. I am constantly feeling like everyone is out to get me, even though I know they aren't. Every time I meet someone new it's a horrifying experience. I always think the worst and I am constantly imagining that everyone I know and talk to look down on me and put me down in their minds. So much so that it feels so utterly real when it happens in my head that I honestly start to believe it.