I see. For me, I'm just not sure I'm even wired that way anymore. It feels like everything got tied in a knot, and I'd need someone to go in and untie all the mess. Giggety. I'm loney, I miss the companionship, I miss being in-love, and I miss feeling like I belonged with someone, or like I had purpose, but at the same time, I'm scared, to be honest. I've also got a lot going on, and am pretty messed up, so it's kinda like... a case of finding someone of whom can even accept me, even with all my problems, since this seems so monumentally unlikely, I kind of just don't bother looking or anything, regardless of that small part of me that may well be loney and all that. Point is, going through that whole process all over again with someone, freaks me out. Learning to trust a woman again, freaks me out. The whole thing just makes me uneasy. :\

Is there anyone else that feels like this? :|

Sorry if I worded stuff badly - I'm recovering from a bad panic attack, and am very tired.