I just wanted to let you know that I feel for you.

but truly, getting help is the best step. I promise, you don't want to avoid therapy because the OCD just gets worse and worse. I suggest buying the book "talking back to OCD". It outlines very specifically what CBT is and how you will be doing it with your therapist. It might help to ease some of that anxiety to know what to expect.

Therapy seems daunting but I can tell you right now that it saved my life. It may seem like a lot to deal with, but your therapist will go slow. She/he will assess where you are and go from there at a pace that works for you. And they will there for you every step of the way.