Hi! Having memories and telling someone about them is hard and confusing. Remember that your Mother doesn't want it to be true, so she might not be a reliable source. The more you work, the more what really happened will become clear. You're doing what you need to to get healthy. There's nothing wrong with that. You wrote that everything seemed to be making sense. I would trust that. When I have that feeling I know I'm on the right path.Try to let it come. I know it's really hard and scary, but you are an adult and you can handle it, what ever the truth may be. Good luck to you and keep up the great work! Annie