The above statement "It's like HELL" sums it up perfectly. That's the best way I can describe it. I kind of wish I had these amazing episodes that some seem to have where everything is absolutely AWESOME.

Being depressed and manic at the same time just messes my head up so much. I'll be wanting to just curl up on the couch and hide away feeling paranoid but then have so much energy and agitation that I'll want to do things, leave the house then quickly regret it and start freaking out about everything around me. Then feel like it'll pass, all will be ok.. the next minute just want to die, think that no one will even notice that I'm gone within a few weeks or so. Man, I've been that mixed up lately I'm still in one I think >_<