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Originally Posted by WrongEverything
I know it sounds like i'm catastrophising it and I am.. but that's not the issue. I have bipolar, its not going away, I will have ups and downs I can't control. And I just don't know if i'm up for a lifetime of this soul crushing.
When they talk of statistics on bipolar and suicide, I know why its high now. Somethin like 20% - 1 in 5 will kill ourselves.
What's the point of goign through these cycles that just return to crush you again?
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Oh wow.. you just summed up exactly how I am feeling right now. And I know my feeling is off because I'm either coming down from an episode, in the middle of one or gosh knows what else. I've also been off all meds for a few months now (well except valium and self medicating)
Can totally relate which probably doesn't help at all but I'm 29 almost 30, no job currently but still with a hope that things can change, eventually. I guess if we don't have hope then we don't have anything. And if I still have some hope after all the years of depression/anxiety/bipolar eventually came out then yeah.. it's something.
Was talking about the suicide rate earlier actually, it's damn scary but I can see why. I hope things have improved for you or do soon.