You're not crazy...but I know it can feel like it sometimes. When I get manic now the good feeling lasts only a short time and then I too feel very irritable cranky...so I feel your pain. It's a horrible place to be in. Has your doc given you any AP to help bring you down from.the mania? I have olanzapine that I use as a PRN in this type of situation. All the best to you.