Thanks guys.
Im having so much trouble with this. I am angry. Cause it has come out that he was beaten to death. The person who they suspect did it was his friend. I cant get over it. How much do you have to beat someone to cause death?!? My heart is breaking thinking about the siffering that my sweet friend may have gone thru. He did not deserve this!!

I had an appt with my pdoc today. I talked with him about it. And how I was just not grasping the fact that my good friend was dead and his death was violent. And that I felt more angry than sad right now. He said thats normal b/c Im in shock by it and the fact it happened so close to my house. He said that me feeling any emotion was a sign that I was getting better cause a year ago, I had no emotions.
My husband is very sad and in a state of disbelief. I feel so sorry for him. We were talking about our dear friend last night. And I was recalling the first time I had met him and how he scared me cause this big man just came up and said "You must be R's wife! You are a pretty little girl gimme a hug!" I was laughing about it last night cause as I came to know him, I found that he was a hugger and just boisterus and jovial. And my husband had tears running down his face and said "The first time I met him he was wearing a diaper." :'( His heart is broken.