jpny I can't give you a reason to live, but I can tell you that there IS one. Please take care of yourself. I'm sorry calling the T fell through. I've been in your situation, pills and all. But they didn't work, and I made it. And now, i'm glad I did. Its hard to see beyond the present, but if you choose to save your life, 2 days from now you may just be glad you did.