Oh, Iam42, that sounds so much like me. I do the same thing, cry, dissociate, or just think "Please Be Done With ME" or "Hurry Up And Finish." It is a terrible way to think when you do really love the person you are with. I think each new person you are with may bring out different triggers. Could that be part of the issue.

I have been doing Trauma Work in T. I have isses to say the least. Trauma work to deal with past stuff. It is very difficult, but worth it. I think it has helped me with things, but I still can't seem to want to have sex. I have been married for 19 years. So a sexless marriage is not impossible. Ours is not sexless, but it is very much one sided. My H gets it and likes it, me I could care less if we ever do it again.

So I have no real words of wisdom, just know that we here you and you are not alone in this.