One of my biggest issue with my Bipolar issues are the meds. I know everyone is different and one needs to try many types and combos of medications to get something that sorta works.

I've gone through alot so far. But my doctor just wants me on strong anti psychotics now. No more mixtures of say, anti depressants or anti anxiety or anything. Just these strong meds. I have tried several already and they reallllyyyy mess me up. And not just for a bit, the side effects stay for months.

Sure I am not.. that depressed anymore. Still am but it's a bit better! But now I am unable to stay awake for more than 5 hours a day, unable to drive, unable to stop twitching, hearing sounds randomly that are not there, and sitting on the toilet most of the day because well I seemed to lose my ability to digest anything.
Some say the side effects, while bad, are leagues better than suffering from bipolar. I don't agree. Because of this, I've been called closed minded by many professionals who then blame me for my issues.

Am I foolish for wanting a new doctor? Or for wanting to take less severe drugs? Is this just a fantasy I'm living in to think I can take a combination of meds that don't turn me into a zombie with no personality who doesn't enjoy anything?