You touch my heart and thank you for sharing your story. I grew up in a very violent alcoholic home so i know you had to grow up fast. I have suffered a lot in my life but i truely beleive we suffer to prepare us for something great we can't yet see. Maybe you have suffered to be an inspiration to others because you sure are to me. My nephew is autistic and so from what we have learned health issues are common more
He is seven and it seems he's in and out of the hospital a lot
And no it doesn't seem fair but he is such an inspiration. He followed me everywhere when my husband died died and one day i was at my worst and he looked at me out of no where and said Aunt G your a butterfly you gotta move on you gotta have a dream. Truely touched my heart and pulled me from a bad place. There's something big meant for you so never give up. Try to find something you enjoy to occupy your mind at night. Example i love to paint. I'm not good at it but it still relaxes me. Maybe you could write a book I for one think your life story is worth telling
what are your favorite things to do?