I'm sorry you are so lonely....have you tried a singles group at a church? Sometimes thats a good way to meet new people.

You could try volunteering for something.... i dunno what.. whatever interests you.. working at the rescue mission a bit.. or the hospital..you can really meet some great folks volunteering.

I think you do need to get out.. go walk in the mall after work.. join the Y... So you don't stay in this state of mind...

I hope this difficult time passes soon hun.. you deserve to be happy too.