I'm so very sorry for your loss. Both your body and your mind need time to heal. Treating the bipolar and depression is important and if you took medicines that worked before perhaps you can go back to those. Make sure you get a therapist too, to help deal with all the trauma you've experienced, you need to have someone you can talk to about all your feelings and thoughts. Sometimes our family members aren't able to be that person. Take time to grieve and be gentle with yourself. Do the things that are best for you. (hugs)