you'd really advise against it? I don't want to do it, it's just that the curiosity and peer pressure is killing me. Although, now I know what an altered state of mind feels like. I could see fine, everything was there, but it was like my mind was somewhere else. Everything seemed to melt and turn into a fast-paced cartoon at first. I will never forget how it started. It was about 2 years ago. I had eaten a couple mouthfulls of hash cake, after feeling nothing, continued to eat more. I was very inexperienced, so I had no idea what this could do to me. About an hour later I felt the most amazing high ever, every movement felt good, and I felt like I was glowing with energy. Then I started hearing laughing, as if the air in my room was mocking me, and it just kept getting louder and louder, and the more I tried to convince myself it was nothing, the more intense it got, until I finally had to accept I was having a bad trip. I would do anything to never relive that feeling again. I spent a year in therapy just trying to cope with it, and suffered from flashbacks all year, and to this day. However, when faced with the pressure to try lsd, well... not even my therapist knew what to tell me. Sure I can say no all I want, but that desire to just have that experience is just so great unfortunately.
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