I do see a therapist,
And I haven't been able to talk to her much about this, but I did let her know that I've been very scared about being watched by him. I'm at that point where I don't know what to do anymore.

My pdoc knows about me feeling watched, but I have not gone into much detail with him either. I am taking meds to get rid of the "voice/s" but I don't think it's psychosis that's making me hear him.

I'm struggling to get to sleep at night. Ugh. I don't want to call my therapist because I am worried about bugging her. It's late and she's probably asleep now anyway. I am truly tired, but I am more afraid of being hurt in my sleep. I have gotten some very wonderful advice from people here, but then night comes and here I am still scared and still not sleeping.

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I've tried keeping my hands busy so I don't harm myself by typing and it seems to help with that, but it doesn't make me any less scared.