... not in a good place and was offered admission. But strongly objected as I really see no point of hospitalisation.

Best thing is? My pdoc belittled what I was conveying to him. The whole way I was hiding my rage, disappointment and everything I was feeling and was just going "hrm? Oh ya ya yah" and just wanted the session to end. It's times like this when I miss my previous pdoc who cared for me dearly. He told me to contact him earlier if I really in a crisis. Nope, not going to. Never going to. Either I would really carry it out, or just keep quiet. Who wants to hear my whining anyway... Compared to mine, other's problems are of paramount anyway. I'm just a whiny person who is just stuck with a label.

Oh did I say that the pdoc just now sounded like he was reading off a textbook? And in the middle of the session of which I was so much in a crisis he answered a call that's not much of an importance? That the previous session he called another person and said "yo bro, you free?"

.. yup I should have given up on treatment in the first place.