Hi, this is long but bare with me...
I have been in love with the guy for the past 12 years, he is also the first man I ever slept with..the bad part being he has always been in a relationship and was also married once in the past 12 years. We have been together on and off in all these years, and for some reason I cant let him go! I have no idea why, it seems he feels the same..because I would assume he would of let me go by now ( as he has no problems in the ladies department) I recently married and all of a sudden he tells me how he feels...for the FIRST time ever..but says he doesn't want to come between me and my family (in general hes very quiet when it comes to feelings and opening up) What I'm confused about is, does he actually love me?? why is he not just forgetting about me?? could he possibly be playing me after all these years??
I was 15 when we slept together the first time and he was a 20.
Its not like me to be naive, I make responsible choices in all other aspects of my life..its just THIS! it eats me alive..I can erase him from my mind but not my heart for some reason. At times we go over a year without seeing each other...but thinking about him will always make me smile, I miss him so much...but right now have declined seeing him. Please help me sort this out!!!