Hi everyone,
I thought I'd ask: do you have any ideas for a 'newbie' like me? Here's my situation: I was receiving excellent mental health services through the state (due to my lack of income), but because I am eligible for insurance at my new job, I no longer 'qualify' for state funded mental health services. This puts me in a 'bind' because I was due for a re-eval a couple months ago. My psych told me, "you have several symptoms of Bipolar disorder and you'd benefit greatly from medication". She then gave me a trial of a new Bipolar med. (This was in October.) From October until now, my life has 'careened out of control', literally. I haven't taken any meds at all, my moods oscillate from 'happy' to 'very irritable', sometimes I enjoy being around others and other times... well, I would prefer to be completely alone, my 'lack of foresight' has caused problems with my checkbook, paying bills, and keeping 'on top of things' as well as causing me 'issues' with people (interpersonal relationships)... and I have other 'issues' in my life which cause me extreme anxiety to the extent that I have avoided them and now must reap the consequences of my avoidant behavior! What can I do to help myself? Any ideas? I will have insurance in January, but this poses yet another problem: I was in the process of being 're-evaluated' and haven't been formally diagnosed recently with Bipolar disorder... though I was diagnosed in the past (1999). There may be a problem with my illness being 'covered' by insurance. I know I need the re-eval and the meds... my life is a huge mess!!! And, my interpersonal relationships are suffering tremendously!!! (I am also worried about how this will affect my relationships at work. I've had issues in the past and I don't want to repeat my mistakes!) Any suggestions? Ideas? Anything? Thanks for listening... this helps me tremendously.