Hi Jon B.
You are right... Bipolar reeeeeallly sucks!!!!!!! Ohhh, I can totally relate to this!!! When I read your post, I couldn't help thinking 'how much' it sounds like me!!! You're definitely not 'alone'... I can tell you that!! I wish the sidewalk would just open up and swallow me when the things you've described happen in my life. If it's any consolation, 'there's always tomorrow'. And with tomorrow, there is a 'clean slate' to 'start over again'. (I know, I know... it's 'easier said than done', especially when some of us have OCD in addition to Bipolar disorder... argh!!!) Things get better... sometimes, we have to go through 'stupid moments', in order to fully appreciate the good moments.