Yes! The waiting is terrible. Just like you describe. I have been able to enjoy some "normal" time but even then, your WAITING until you next episode. I try to focus on just today. What can I do today? How are things going today? What am I looking forward to today? How terrible is today and how can ease it today? If I start thinking about tomorrow and next week and "when am I going to get better(or worse)" my anxiety multiplies by 1,000 and things get worse.

I hope you feel better soon, but more importantly, I hope that you have at least ONE happy thought today, even if just for a moment.