When "hang in there" is all I hear, it disheartens me. I wish there was something I could do to get better other than just cry day after day.

Today was not good, well this week too. And last week. I'm very lonely and afraid to make new friends or even leave the house because I cry and am so jealous of others. They are able to do things and be fine. They get to function and be happy. And then they get to belittle my illness and get frustrated at me when I don't get better, saying I'm just doing it to myself.

The waiting is never ending. I don't know what to do. "Hang in there" is the only thing people tell me. Last year, the year before, and the year before that. And nothing changes, I just get worse.