I seem to be constantly making a "fresh start". Sorting out the finances, trying to get back a routine, trying to find my life again until the next time it all goes Crashing down again. It's just one long cycle like bipolar. Life then no life, routine then no routine. Trying to start over having messed up your life one more time. I've been clean from my addiction for 3 days and I'm proud of myself, but where do I begin. I have no idea. I don't really know life without my addiction. I do know I'm free of it though.