I am in a situation where I am being stalked. I know, it sounds crazy, but it's true. I do have generalized anxiety, and I don't normally take anything for it. I do get treated for bipolar 1, ptsd, and adhd though.I see a therapist, and none of that seemed to work this time. I tried calling my Pdoc this morning. She is out until next week, and the only number she offered for help is the hospital psych ward. I remembered my family doctor prescribing me something for when I flew 2 years ago. He is out due to back surgery. I'm not sure if my situation constitutes as an emergency, but I'm not really sure what to do. The severity of my symptoms have lasted for days. I am also afraid of getting admitted if I go to the hospital. I was released from a stay at an different institution 2 months ago. I need to know if it sounds like I need help, and any suggestions on what I should do.
I have not been able to eat anything since Friday. I've tried liquids, and I can barely sip at things without gagging. I've always picked at my skin and scalp when I am nervous (something my therapist is working on). I've been doing it very hard without noticing. I am not trying to hurt myself in any way.. it's just a nervous reaction that I've always had. I didn't realize how bad I was doing it until I tried to shower. As soon as the water hit my hair I immediately started crying because of the pain and burning. I have welts all over my scalp. There are marks all over my chest and back from digging. I feel shaky inside and out. I'm sweaty and clammy. I can't focus. I've been staying at a place where I can't be found. I can barely sleep.. when I do it's for very short periods of time, and I wake up in complete panic.
Any suggestions here?
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