I am trying to be friends. It is very hard for me to let people close enough to get to that point, and then I cling to them. I also have a tendancy of putting all of my attention on one or two friends and discounting the rest of them. I know a lot of people around here consider me a friend but I have a hard time accepting that a lot of the time. I am attempting to stop doing this. They are all important and most of my friends could use me as a friend as well.

I believe I'm an okay listener though I do my share of dumping as well. I have no one to dump on in the "real world" and this place is my only outlet. When a person becomes a "real friend", whatever that is, can't really put a definition on it, I'll do anything for them, bend over backwards, to the point of hurting myself. Yep, there's the black and white thinking for sure. I either ignore and discount or I smother you....sigh. At least I don't push too much anymore. I guess that's a good thing....and at least I'm aware of what I'm doing and what it happening. For a long, long time, I didn't have a clue.